Selfies with the boo

Just lost my blog when it accidentally closed.  Oops.  Guess it's lost.  I feel sick.  My allergies are so bad.  I have been eating all junk.  No more. 

Saturday morning breakfast, coffee and my Bear

I am at Panera at 7 in the morning.  I don't have to be anywhere or do anything.  I have a little money and good reliable transportation.  My life is simple.  I feel light.  I have very few possessions and all of them have meaning.  I can breathe. I  am not in a rush.  I am free.  I rarely have felt this in my life.  I am filled with joy of this possibility to fill the time with what I choose.  Or not fill it at all.  Living minimalistic is the best decision I have ever made.  I prefer life this way.  I give myself permission to relax and not be perfect.

First day of membership at gym

I opened a gym membership.  Today is my first day back.  I am just walking on the treadmill.  What I have learned in my journey is huge changes do not happen overnight.  I start with small incremental changes that seems small day to day but over years can make huge differences.  I have been living like an average American and it shows.  I feel sick.  The change to be an average American did not happen over night either.  Slowly over time my habits and lifestyle changed.  I should not put too many expectations on myself to start.  Today was about just paying for the membership.  Putting out that extra effort to set my intentions in a different direction.  Now, the next time I come to the gym it will be slightly more comfortable.  I might not even recognize the day to day changes in how I feel and look buy year over year it all came to taking that first intentional step and decision to choose a healthier path.  I am so grateful to be an American who is blessed enough to make these simple free choices.  I pray for those who don't have the freedom to choose health and happiness.  I will not take for granted my bodies astounding ability to adapt to whatever stresses I decide to apply to it.  I thank God for my past decisions to be a training machine and that non of that hardwork went to waste.  Each step is easier because of the last.  Growth is most important to me.  Being able to get wiser with age is my biggest asset as the years pass.  The aging athlete does have an advantage over the younger.  This tends to even the playing field quite a bit.  Never give up.  Never quite.  A fighting spirit doesn't come from no where.  It means I have been knocked down uncountable and untold times.  Each time I get up only makes me stronger and wiser.  Keep fighting!!!!!

California independent nation

I think it is about time!

Equal Rights Amendment

While I was getting my freedom windows tinted women were marching.  I was with them in spirit.  It all makes sense now.  I thought that the only way for the ERA to get passed was if hillary was inaugurated.  I was wrong.  Hillary will lead us into the next four years.  At the forefront of America's minds now is, Womens Rights.  Let's do this!!!

Window Tinting Day

Window Tinting Day.

Today, the day after my daughters birthday and the President trump inauguration I sit in Starbucks downtown Campbell.  Stopping to type in a blog is difficult.  I just like to live, travel fluidly through the moments and go with the flow.  But, taking the time to stop and reflect on where I am at is a huge challenge.  I am willing to try.  Why?  I love challenges.  Life to me is worth living with challenges.  I also realize that without stopping to reflect then I avoid really being in the present moment and learning something that maybe I was missing.  I had dinner with my daughter last night.  The grandparents took her, dominated the conversation and created an impossible attempt to have real true communications with Alex.  They were talking behind my back as I saw Alex signal to Jeannette the finger over the lip single to be quiet as I walked up.  I left the dinner and left behind much more.  I have sacrificed everything for my daughter.  I have to stop.  I have to take care of myself.  The battle is not worth fighting any longer.  I am ready to let the grandparents take Alex away.  Alex and I realize that the drama they cause is not worth fighting.  I think this battle has already been lost.  Alex chooses to live with the grandparents even after spending months in the luxury apartment.  Alex does not know how to live any other way but under the control of Jeannette and Dick.  I have lost myself in the battle.  I am done fighting a losing battle.  

The luxury apartment was not worth the price as Alex decided to betray me and lie.  I moved out of the apartment and now I am temporarily in my car.  I just tinted the windows as dark as possible and have to go pick it up.  

I am ready to start my life again.  I have given up so much and Alex at the end just hates me.  Literally she said she didn't care if I died.  I hope that someday she can be free to be honest and say the truth for which I know she knows deep in her heart.  

Now, I face all the possibilities of my happiness.  The future looks so bright. 

My new puppy, Bear is a Multipoo and is absolutely the best decision I have ever made.  I look forward to the next 15 years with my new companion and all the adventures we have in our future.  Well, the car is ready so I will begin my 2.5 mile trek back to the shop.  Until my next post...happy adventures!!!!

Whole Foods Market

First time stopping in at Whole Foods in the morning.  Need access to real whole foods with no kitchen.  This is a few blocks from my work office.  Perfect set up!